So, I know I said I wouldn't be blogging anymore, but I just realized an upside to blogging. When you don't have your notebook handy, and you do have a computer handy, and you want to write about some amazing event, then blogging is actually very convenient. Yesterday I had my very first ultrasound. I can't even describe the wonderment and joy of seeing MY baby alive and thriving! She (or he) was moving like a little fish! Just dancing everywhere! The doctor was getting frustrated because little bean would NOT hold still for her. And then, the doctor finally got a few good pictures of my little bean. It feels incredible to actually see the little thing that I'm working hard to make everyday! I could not stop laughing just because of the pure joy I felt the whole time i was looking at my beautiful little love. And then having Paul there to see everything as well, was so touching, it made me want to just cry. His whole being just filled with wonderment and joy at seeing his child thriving and growing. When our little bean put it's hand up in plain sight, Paul gasped and said "Is that a hand?!? It has little fingers and everything!" And it did, five little fingers that we could count. The whole experience, having Paul there and being in the office just knowing today was the day we got to see our baby, was so full of excitement, giddiness and joy! Paul just kept me laughing the whole time. He was playing with the lamp that was  touch sensitive and just being the biggest goofball! We just laughed and laughed. It was one of the best days.. We also found out that our little bean actually isn't so little and according to the doctor is actually kind of a big baby! I guess that helps explain why I'm getting so big so early. Anyway, it was such a great day.. It was amazing.  

 Little beans hand waving hello! 

 Little bean Looking right at us!

Little beans profile. 

It has been so so incredibly long since I have written anything in my blog.. I guess between working and school, writing my thoughts and memories down has surely slipped through the cracks. However, lately all I can think about is how much I want to be able to document my life. I have such a wonderful life and such a wonderful husband, and now we have a baby on the way. I feel that it would be sad if I didn't write about my life. What I cant decide is whether I want to keep blogging or keep a photo journal...actually, I just decided. I think that with technology and social media, something is lost. I want a tangible keepsake of my life. Not just my words on a computer screen that could potentially become lost. I want to write everyday in a book and glue in memories and pictures. So I guess I won't be blogging much anymore. And really, I am very ok with that. :)

I love you Paul Cutchins. You're my everything.

I am so blessed. So lucky. My life is at peace, and so am I.

Merry Christmas!

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Eww..

The guy next to me smells of dirty body oder and bad breath...like really bad. He's five feet away to... Bath soap and a tooth brush for Christmas? Yes Santa please!

Hello again

It has been an incredibly long time since I last posted. I guess life just swept me away for a while, and to be truthful, I miss my blogging self. I love being able to record everything. So here's to my new goal of blogging a lot more than every ten months.

I was looking at my last post and I just realized that I posted that before Paul had even proposed to me. I guess I already knew he was my forever love. Now I really know he is my forever love! He's my soul mate.

I'm a year and some into marriage and it has been quite the ride. I don't understand how I was ever not married to this guy! We have so much fun together and he is my best friend in the whole wide world. We have a perfect life right now with our two dog childs. Oh! I got two dog childs by the way, Norman and Cheyenne. They are simply hilarious and so wonderful. I cherish them. We are also moving...for the third time since we've been married!! Sheesh... Hopefully this one will be a little more final. It's hard to find a good place for our little family. Apparently not everyone loves our dog childs....everyone is entitled to their opinion I guess, even if its a bad one.

 I am in the middle of finals right now and I am proud to say I totally have bitch slapped school. Holla! As in 4.0 two semesters in a row! Who woulda thunk!

Life is good. I am happy.

P.S. Tis the season for peppermint mocha Stuff. Yummy! A wise best friends once said to me, the most depressing sound in the world is the sound of an about to be empty cup of joe. Tis true friend, tis true.


Much love,

Cola Forever


(P.S.S. Don't forget to smile, life is a beautiful wonderful gift that we are lucky to have.)

Why I Love My Future Husband

Plus a billion other reasons... :) 

basically we were made for each other.