lovely && such

rabbit hunting.. :) so fun

Halloween party

bowling

walking around down town Rexburg..its quaint 

going to the caves

sunday football parties 

snowmobiling

clean checks! 

my roommates

the park i was in looove with

rollerblading

yoga

the gardens

country dancing

the skate park.

running through sprinklers when it was 50 degrees out!

crazy fun and meeting some of the best people ...ever!

I loved first semester. 

catching up on my blogging...oh snapple berry and apples. part one :)

Its 9:57 and I have my History homework due In 2 hours and 2 minutes.

But...I had this itching to blog, and its been so long...so I simply couldn't resist.

I miss writing my thoughts, I miss capturing my thoughts by typing them into a new post.

Needles to say I really couldn't resist..and homework will just have to wait. 

yay to being a procrastinator ;)

This past year has been the craziest most trying and eventful year I think of my life. 

It has for sure been the most hard and difficult yet the most sweet and tender and rewarding year. 

Today makes exactly one year since I drove up to BYU-I to start my first year of college. 

I never really blogged about it. I looked like this:

Not my most attractive photo..but it perfectly describes how leaving for my first semester felt.

I'm wearing my dear friend Williams jacket because I missed him already.

He and I have have a pretty wonderful friendship and have been dear friends for quite a while 

and I  wasn't to sure what I would do with out him a minute away.

The car is packed to the brim with the things I swore I needed.

 Including: DI plates, pans, silverware ect.

roller blades

ALL my clothes

 the random knick knacks I couldn't leave behind

 and of course my rabbie. yes, I took my rabbie with me 

My stuffed rabbit I've had since I can remember. 

I remember getting to my apartment and being very unsure.

I didn't feel i was quite ready for school. and I still don't think I was. 

But I am so glad I went when I did. 

I ended up having the most amazing roommates and we were like a family.

We were all so close and I love those girls to death.

Anna, Masey, Bryndi, Chelsea and Cassi

We had fun.. :) yes that is whip cream.

having awesome roommates helped a lot my first semester. I would have had a lot
harder of a time than i did if i didn't have these awesome girls as my roommates.
There was also Mr. David, who I started dating in October.. Who helped me more than anyone else.

First semester i grew..a lot and learned a ton. I met wonderful people. and had a wonderful time..even when it was hard..it was worth it.

this was on my friends status i love it. so i thought i'd share it


“What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.”

I let myself fall in love..Alot

No hesitation. I free fall. 

And every time, every time..

Its complete magic a little taste of heaven

Its a pure and true love

I never let the fear of a broken heart detour me from being in love.

Being in love, 

the feeling of falling in love,

 is worth every potential hurt that love sometimes brings.

The memory of love, of loving someone never fades.

But heart break does. 

I believe with everything i am that it truly is better to love and to loose

then to never love at all. 

there is something so gratifying about working hard for the things you get. A sense of accomplishment a feeling of complete satisfaction. Just knowing that all the hours you put into something gave back so much more in return. I just paid for all of my tuition with my own money and i bought a car with my own money. It's an addicting feeling really, so enticing. exciting... I like it very much. I like watching my bank account grow and then when it does shrink  knowing its for something completely worth it makes it ok. I always used to spend my money on fast food and junk that is super unhealthy or unnecessary ..not gratifying at all. It just gives you a fat butt,curdely stomach and junk. haha I feel like i've become much wiser about money and work ethic which of course is a good thing. And really, my parents have been telling me for ages about this whole work ethic thing and saving money not wasting it etc etc.. funny how really a lot of the time parents are actually right. Thanks mom and pops you're advice is top notch. :)

read the dictionary
go sky diving
volunteer somewhere
visit a foreign country
bottle sand from the beach
write frequently
push myself to be better
push myself to do better
climb to the top of a mountain and meditate
morning meditation
be in a constant state of learning
live in spontaneity
take guitar lessons
learn asl

i have to pee really bad and i cant go to the bathroom.
and im tired. and i want to just complain.

antisocialclosedbookopenbookoutspokensocialme

A very awesome friend of mine has told me on multiple occasions to start blogging again.. Because he loves reading them. Lately though I've been terrible at blogging and every time I have a good blog worthy thought its when i can't go and blog about it because i'm at work. note to self: maybe i should write my thoughts down? so i can blog about it later? just a thought :) I've decided he's right. I need to blog more. I keep all my thoughts in my head and i rarely share them. I have a slight fear of letting people know what cola really thinks. Side track: (cola is me..in case you were wondering Sarah so lovingly gave me that name and i think it fits me) I feel very exposed when i share my thoughts. I feel like an open book and i'm not sure if i want to be an open book.. Pro's and cons: 

Pro's- People know how i really feel/think therefore they know me better

It helps to express my thoughts better especially at times when sharing my thoughts is a must

"side note: whenever i want to share my

 thoughts i can't because i don't know 

how or what to say because i never do."

I think it may help me not to be as shy, yes..it would..actually.

I wouldn't have to cherry pick the thoughts i decide to share because they are all already out there

It be more cola defining

others could see through my eyes i guess you could say...understand better.

Con's-It's very nerve-racking and scary being an open book

what would people think? 

It feels slightly invading. 

uncomfortable

It be very... 

I've decided my "Cons List" sounds super pathetic...shit..I always have thought its very dumb to live in fear. No matter what its about. Its dumb to let fear decide how i live. It makes me this timid shy closed book type person that i don't think i want to be..

I get very comfortable and used to solitude. Somewhat antisocial at times to.. Thats not me..at all. I don't know when and where i let this shy person become me..but i did. It's gone past the point of shy to. its reached fear, which is not ok. I used to talk all the time non stop and i was very cola. and lately i haven't been..No matter how much a blog about it, its not going to change unless i do something about it. Which is easier said than done sadly..well i gotta at least try. You learn more from trying and failing than never trying at all..(hmm..that was a spiffy thought. i like that) So in that case i will try and even if i do from time to time fail and become an anti social hermit every once in a while...it'll be ok. Because i'll be trying and i have a prediction that in time i will be an open book type outspoken cola which from my pro's list seems like a good thing to be. 

"i don't feel very classy"

my conscience is pointing all her fingers my way.

and i'm trying not to notice