Lately i haven't known how to write whats been going down

im not sure how it get it into words

i feel it all.

every bit

i feel it but i can't say it. 

so im going to try something new.

i might not blog for a while

but i hope to write again soon

half the time i don't even know what words to say

i dont know where i am going

or what im doing.

i dont know how things will turn out

or what my next move is going to be.

forgetting

leaving

and pretending

nothing was wrong

it's not ok

you can't bury things

you can't hide them

and you can't pretend they never happened

because one day it comes up

and you won't be able to run.

facing it. and defeating it.

thats the only way it will go away.

you can either burn something, or you can bury it

 i'm going to burn it.
every hard thing i've ever buried.

I am going to overcome
the things that used to overcome me