"i miss you.."

"If you ever loved somebody put your hands up"

 
"If you ever loved somebody put your hands up"

Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything 

hard

very hard actually

but right.

why?

i don't know exactly.

it's done.

running

ache

stop.

ache

feel

ache.

so

so 

hard.

but right.

Merry Christmas!

It's Christmas Eve

And It feels so lovely.

"Love is all around"

My family well,

they are just gems.

I love them. 

I love this Christmas

yes.

very much so.

84604

Hello 84604!!!!!

I am home fro the holidays

:)

so unbelievably happy.

really i can't even contain it.

The bus ride was unbearably exciting..not

but hey it got me home.

a nice African man drove me home

and helped me carry my luggage

and helped me put it into my Daddy's truck.

i get attacked my miss natters 

and play with her for a couple hours

video games whip cream and just talking

Then my mama came home and i tackled her onto her bed

in the biggest hug i think she's ever gotten

Then miss Sarah who was supposed to be in Idaho came and surprised me.

"what the heck??"

...

........

"Sarah!!!!!!!!!!!!"

biggest best friend hug imaginable.

We talked and cried 

and just loved being in each others company

Ryan and Lu got very big hugs as well.

My home is just like Christmas

and i love it

Hannah and i caught up on life

and well

to be honest

life

is

amazing. 

so smile.

P.S. i almost cried when i saw my Utah mountains.

&

thank you Matisyahu, Bob Marley, Bob McFerrin for getting me through such a boring bus ride home.

Except when i got to talk to Cassi..that was Grand

Real Meaning of Christmas

I hope, this Christmas season we don't forget the meaning of Christmas.

I hope we all keep the spirit of love, hope, peace , and giving alive.

I hope we all remember the birth of our savior Jesus Christ.

All he did for us, and in remembrance we give of ourselves to others.

Merry Christmas everyone, lets light up the world.

med·i·tate  (md-tt)

v. med·i·tat·ed, med·i·tat·ing, med·i·tates

v.tr.

1. To reflect on; contemplate.

2. To plan in the mind; intend

v.intr.

1.

a. Buddhism & Hinduism To train, calm, or empty the mind, often by achieving an altered state, as by focusing on a single object.

b. To engage in devotional contemplation, especially prayer.

2. To think or reflect, especially in a calm and deliberate manner

Meditation 

clears the mind

body 

and soul.

it brings peace.

within.

Elder F Enzio Busche of The Church of Jesus Christ

She apologized.

My perspective on her, has changed so much.

And I feel lucky that I know her.

 It's amazing what an apology can do.

And how it can change things.

My Prayer

"Faith is not faith..until it's all you're holding onto."

"God grant me the  serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the  courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to 

know the difference."

"Faith is a knowledge within the heart, beyond the reach of proof."

"Faith is deliberate confidence in the character of God whose ways you may not understand at the time."

Be faithful in the small things for it is within them that your strength lies."

"Faith is taking that first step even when you cannot see the whole staircase."

I have this prayer in my heart.

And i say it every day.

I pray that my faith will not fail me.

That when i jump, When i cannot see what lies below,

My faith, my prayers, my God.

will catch me.

I pray for strength.

that when God asks something of me.

I will be able to do it.

I pray for joy.

Because it is the most

precious feeling that can be felt.

I pray for those I love.

And for those who do not have faith.

I pray that all may feel love.

Because love powers

all that is good.

I pray that those around me,

may see who I am trying to become.

I pray that i will never give up.

I have a prayer in my heart.

And i pray that my prayer

will inspire and help

those around me.

I am also thankful.

For the past i have learned from

This day i can take

and the future i can write.

I am blessed.

And I am thankful.

I am loved.

What more could i ask.  

Finding the rainbow after the storm.

is a glorious feeling

 =)

This is Mr. David.

He is very sweet.

He's helped me a lot.

And I'm thankful for him.

for all he's done.


= )

Self-acceptance comes from meeting life's challenges vigorously. Don't numb yourself to your trials and difficulties, nor build mental walls to exclude pain from your life. You will find peace not by trying to escape your problems, but by confronting them courageously. You will find peace not in denial, but in victory.” - J. Donald Walters


i have a lot to be grateful for. And i am so so grateful. 


Mr. David shared this quote with me and i didn't look at it very close till now.
I can learn a lot from this quote.
Words are such a powerful thing.
I want my words to be able to change things.
and they will.


From my experiences, i will learn and grow.
And i will share what i have learned.
And with my words, my story
and my life will leave a mark 
in some way or another.
it will.

hello again,


its me


its been a very very long time since we've talked.
oh how i missed you.
and oh how so much has happened.

i think its time you and i caught up.
and i fill your pages again with me.