So, I know I said I wouldn't be blogging anymore, but I just realized an upside to blogging. When you don't have your notebook handy, and you do have a computer handy, and you want to write about some amazing event, then blogging is actually very convenient. Yesterday I had my very first ultrasound. I can't even describe the wonderment and joy of seeing MY baby alive and thriving! She (or he) was moving like a little fish! Just dancing everywhere! The doctor was getting frustrated because little bean would NOT hold still for her. And then, the doctor finally got a few good pictures of my little bean. It feels incredible to actually see the little thing that I'm working hard to make everyday! I could not stop laughing just because of the pure joy I felt the whole time i was looking at my beautiful little love. And then having Paul there to see everything as well, was so touching, it made me want to just cry. His whole being just filled with wonderment and joy at seeing his child thriving and growing. When our little bean put it's hand up in plain sight, Paul gasped and said "Is that a hand?!? It has little fingers and everything!" And it did, five little fingers that we could count. The whole experience, having Paul there and being in the office just knowing today was the day we got to see our baby, was so full of excitement, giddiness and joy! Paul just kept me laughing the whole time. He was playing with the lamp that was  touch sensitive and just being the biggest goofball! We just laughed and laughed. It was one of the best days.. We also found out that our little bean actually isn't so little and according to the doctor is actually kind of a big baby! I guess that helps explain why I'm getting so big so early. Anyway, it was such a great day.. It was amazing.  

 Little beans hand waving hello! 

 Little bean Looking right at us!

Little beans profile. 

It has been so so incredibly long since I have written anything in my blog.. I guess between working and school, writing my thoughts and memories down has surely slipped through the cracks. However, lately all I can think about is how much I want to be able to document my life. I have such a wonderful life and such a wonderful husband, and now we have a baby on the way. I feel that it would be sad if I didn't write about my life. What I cant decide is whether I want to keep blogging or keep a photo journal...actually, I just decided. I think that with technology and social media, something is lost. I want a tangible keepsake of my life. Not just my words on a computer screen that could potentially become lost. I want to write everyday in a book and glue in memories and pictures. So I guess I won't be blogging much anymore. And really, I am very ok with that. :)

I love you Paul Cutchins. You're my everything.

I am so blessed. So lucky. My life is at peace, and so am I.