life is good.

con-tem-pla-tion:
[kon-tuhm-pley-shuh]

1.The act of contemplating; thoughtful observation.
2. full or deep reflection; consideration.
3. to find purpose of intent

I have been curiously contemplative. about many things.

"I want to be with someone

who makes me my best self.. in every aspect

 of the word best."

Winter is beautiful.

the two winter wonderland pictures are my backyard.

breath-taking isn't it?

When summer comes maybe i will miss winter

how peaceful and calm it is

even when it may be really cold. 

the quiet white world it brings is amazing

i can't say it isn't beautiful.

because it is oh so beautiful.

and i do love it

Dear sarah and saria

i miss you two

the end. 

:) 

Ingredients for Cola Girl

• Saint Louis Missouri baby!! (my home town, where i lived for ten years)
• Provo/Centerville Utah (i was born in centerville, and i have now lived in provo for 3 1/2 years)
• Music: every kind and all kinds. Rap,Country, Indie and Oldies are my favorites. 
• Adventure: anything outside, exploring everywhere and everything. 
• boating: i've gone every year since i can remember. my wake board is my baby
• Yoga & meditation, (a dear friend introduced me to both)
• people: i love being with the people i love. the end.
• Blogging. (obviously) :) 
• singing. and i want to learn how to play the ukulele, guitar, and piano
• Laughing and smiling.
• Helping people around me,
• my family.
• Shy and quiet, yet completely wild to.. (it works)
• and LOVE i wouldn't be me without love. because i can love like there's no tomorrow. 

This is Natalie
she's my baby sissy
and my mini me.
she's 10 now.
and all grown up.
its crazy how fast times goes.
2 to 10 over night.

and she got her ears pierced.

i feel so ambitious. its surging through my body. through my mind. pulsing.

i want to put this feeling in a bottle and save it always, i could just open up my bottle of ambition every time i felt like i needed it.

lord knows that sometimes my ambition isn't always there,  yet... he knows how much i want it to be! how much i just wish it to be!

so what do i do? to keep my ambition always that is.. instead those sometimes when it randomly decides to knock on my door.. if i could, i really would bottle it up. it seems like the perfect yet simply unrealistic solution.

"everything you want is just outside of your comfort zone"

-Robert Allen

and that is the answer to my solution. if i can just step outside of my circle that 19 years has drawn around me. if i could break the barrier that holds my comfort yet completely refrains me from what i truly want then ambition would surge through out me.

i need to take my leap and shatter my circle of complete comfort and explore and adventure through new ground. I want it i crave it so utterly bad its like this itch i can't scratch unless i do break my circle. 

listen. the sound of shattering glass, is coming. i can't stay in this circle of comfort any more so i am going to break it. no matter how hard and unbearably uncomfortable it may be. i WILL do it.

and see the world in a color i never have.

Happy Valentines Day!

I must confess how excited I was.

I have never gotten flowers and balloons or chocolates, a poem and a cute little stuffed animal before.

That were so nicely placed on my bed for me to come home and find.

It was so lovely. It made me feel so special.

and very much so loved.

Thanks to a kind mister. Who I adore.

Happy Valentines day..

:)

(I hope everyone will sometime have a lover on valentines day)
(..or have people there to let them know they are loved.)

"Valentines Day isn't just for lovers, its a day to love and be loved by all."
-Anonymous
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I made this purchase today.
I adore it.

The beads were made by a lady in Uganda
She makes her living making these beads to support her and her family.
The beads are made of old rolled magazines that she rolled herself.
She gets one dollar a day. Which is more than then ten cents she made before.
I feel like I helped someone today.

And she helped me to.
so..we helped each other.
From across the world.
...
that fact makes me smile.. :)
...

"Opportunities to help will always find you, even when you don't know where to look."

I will go to Uganda one day.

(It's on my bucket list)
so its gotta happen, thats all there is to it.

Bridal Veil: Stunning in the Winter to.

I find comfort in knowing that I am God's baby girl.

I find comforting in knowing he loves me

dear, _______

I'm torn.

between two specials.

and its a bother at times.
It's hard and can hurt to.
I love my two specials.
very very much.
Which is why I'm torn.
oh dear.

Love, Cola

Today I asked myself:

"Cola? What do you want to do today?"

I want to paint

I want to do yoga

I wanted to go to Mesa falls

I want to lay in the grass in shorts and a tee shirt and feel the warm sun brushing against my face.

I want to go roller blading. 

I want to feel a warm breeze

I want to splash in the Provo River with my bare feet

I then realized..I don't have paint 

Yoga class isn't tonight

and everything else needs summer.

I miss summer so terribly.

Today when I was walking home, I paused and looked up at my shining sun.(who has been hiding for days)

 I could actually feel how warm it was. 

and it was fabulous 

Gave me a reminder that summer is not to far off. 

I cannot wait! 

Happy Birthday me!

19 already!!

"smile"

:D

"so sweet"

Sometimes I am so terribly shy. Sometimes I  prefer to be in my own world.

But I always find myself so curious about other people and their lives.

And i just want to know all about them.

"Hi"

"Hello"

"Will you tell me all about yourself please?"

....

I don't think that would work to well.

Which is why i need to stop being so shy.

I want to meet people and make genuine friends.

I want to know them.

and I want them to know me.

Maybe this will work better.

"Hi"

"hello"

"My name is Cola"

"My Name is Megan"

...

And there it begins.

I can tell that we are going to be friends.