Arms Wide Open

Here I am.
In the Midnight hour.
With thoughts rushing through my head.

Here I am.
Sitting and listening..to the music i love.
The music that tells the world.
how i feel inside.
in the poetic way that it does.

Here I am.
Wondering what to say .
What to say to him.

Here I am.
Thinking about a friend.
a dear friend of mine.

Here I am.
Wondering what life has in store.
and what I will do with it.

I am here.
thinking.
listening.
worrying.
wondering.
and.
feeling.

Feeling lots of things.
Most of which i don't.
fully understand.

Who I could be.
where I am going.

The people I love.

The one who makes me wonder.
who makes me think.

The one who i wish i could see.
wish i could talk to.

The one who i can confide in always.

And the one who knows me better than i know myself.

Here I am sitting and thinking.
Thinking and feeling.
Tell me do these feelings ever go away?

Or will they just stay, along with the rushing thoughts in my head.

My biggest downfall.
My biggest weakness.
My biggest fear.

My biggest hope.
My biggest reality.
My biggest solid foundation.

Do you get what I'm saying yet?

Good. Lets keep it that way.

Worry, fear, passion.
longing. wanting. hope.

trust. friendship. love.

These feelings and thoughts rushing.
in this mind. that is trying to sort through.
And make sense of it all.

By writing.
These little tid bits.
That will maybe help